Have you ever felt invisible?
I don’t think there has ever been a time where I felt
invisible in a group setting. If anything, I have always felt that I painfully
stand out. I remember my second semester at RIC we watched a film and one of
the questions was “ What did you think about the culture in the film?” I answered
the question honestly, without hesitation. By the time I was done answering the
question, the room was in an up roar, and everyone in the class had their hand
up eager to disagree. I immediately realized two things, I was the only
“Spanish” girl in the class, and I had just made all the “ White” people mad.
Do Hobson or Nayyrah Waheed help you think about
visibility in any new ways? Be specific in naming and explaining their
arguments, and then relate their words to your own life history.
Due to my very many years at RIC, I have been able to
whiteness a shift in the way conversations around race, and diversity have
changed. I am extremely grateful for professors on campus who are color brave
and are willing to host discussions around race and personal experience
associated with race in their classrooms. Hobson and Waheed didn’t help me
think of visibility in a new way, but Hobson did a great job in explaining why
it is important to be proactive, and the long-term consequences of our actions.
Referring to my example above, just as the students in the classroom didn’t
understand my point of view based on my culture and personal experiences, color
blindness tolerates that separation. Color blindness allows people to see you
as human but does not accept your experiences as real, relevant, or of value.
How might a youth space like YIA — where youth
“share their stories, practice leadership and create change in their
communities” — be an antidote to invisibility?
A youth setting like YIA is an antidote to invisibility in
many ways. Hobson mentions talking issues around race head on, YIA does that
through hosting conversations around difficult topics, putting youth in the
forefront to advocate for themselves and what they believe, and by simply
raising awareness amongst their peers and in the community. YIA creates
individual change agents.
I can relate to you Ashley. In past education classes in my years at RIC, I have also been the only "spanish" girl in class. With that comes a lot of different opinions/thoughts in class discussions. Although at times I did feel like an outcast, I am aware that we all went to different school districts which has a lot to do with our point of views and what is "normal" to us, may not be for others. I am glad to see professors aren't hesitant to talk about being color brave as seen in the past.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing, Ashley. Good for you for answering the question about culture honestly, even though it made you "stand out" and feel a little uncomfortable. I have never been one to share my thoughts or opinions out of a fear of standing out. It is something I am working on and feel that I have gotten better at throughout my time at RIC thanks to the great professors who create the opportunity for questioning and discussion.
ReplyDeleteI really loved that you shared your experiences! I love that you answered that question honestly and didn't hesitate! You should never have to censor yourself in fear of judgement of others! You are entitled to your own opinion and you should never be scared to share it! Great post!
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